1/9/22

 

现在想问下意见长发还是短发好看

都是敷衍分的答案

28/08/22 星期天

 8月28号，这一天是我人生中的低潮

不愿意发生的事都在这一天发生了

一直以来都觉得是我多心但是女人的第六感真的应时这一切.

当你枕边的人背叛你时我的心都好想被几千几剑插进胸口里。心都没力跳动起来了。

我还要经历过两次同样的命运。算命的真的说的我很准，她成经跟我说过要我等到42岁后才结婚不然我的婚姻会有不好的事情但就是我不听在前年又在次跳进婚姻的坟墓。果然如此。今年就是我42岁。可能我听的话就或许不要结婚去了。又不会在让我在一次经历过我8年前所经历的事。

现在的我是不是被天上的神仙处罚着。要我承受是两次心裂肺的情景。

我昨夜没睡，脑子里一直在转六角尖。到今晚还是一样。此刻的心情还是没办法平复下来。

我想我也只好认命算了。

19/06/22 Saturday

Went to jewel to catch a movie with the kiddo

Jurassic world 

15 April 22 Friday

 

Today is a Good Friday and also public holiday 

Been a very long time never update my blog.

Recently busy in between work and home made my life so tight up and stress. There is no time for myself at all.

My life is all occupied by work and family. Reach home still need to handle housework and children matter. Been thinking whether to give up my work and take a short break.

Recently my husband also busy open and handling food stall and also no time for me too.

The stress of work keep making me palpation of my heartbeat. And sometime shortness of breathe. I keep having endless work to do till I felt life is not meaningful at all.

I been trying IVF for the 3rd time and keep failing. I not sure I still have the courage to try one more time as my age is getting up. With all the disappointment I still have to keep telling myself that I will succeed one day or soonest. 

Sometime I feel that hiding at home is the best place for me to stay. All the sadness I had to keep inside my heart ❤️..

PEACE ✌️ 

 

I Hate Year 2021

 Year 2021 is really my bad year for me

Alot of misunderstanding

Alot of quarrel 

Alot times of failure

Alot of work stress

Alot of insecure of life

I just wanna to end this 2021 immediately.

God please let me be happier in YEAR 2022

人生感言 24/11/2021

 

做人没必要处处为人着想， 因为现代的人不想从前，处处只为自己的利益而活。

他们不会感激为了他/她做了什么反而会像小人在你背后嚼舌根

这也包括亲人， 朋友和同事。

你过得消委好一些他们就心里不平衡。

所以我们管好自己的人生就好

无需让外人甚至周边的人知道你的好和坏 

做人也多多为自己着想，做的工，赚得钱，自己享受是天经地一。

不要带着感情来做事，对谁都好太过仁慈也只会让他们理所当然。

自己辛苦只有自己知道， 外人是感受不到也没办法来帮你一把。

也不要勉强自己带一个大头帽。

Moral of the story

对别人的残忍就是对自己宽恕

十月的新的一天

 

时间真的过的太快了。一转眼就10月1日了

每一天都是忙忙碌碌的过着。疫情的关系也不能踏出新家坡。也只能乖乖得在原地也不敢随随便便乱乱跑怕中COVID那就头痛了。

最近的我和老公都在为我们的F&B忙。开了两间小店在咖啡店里。一间卖鱼汤，另一间卖着mookata loklok。每一个细节都得自己摸索。

疫情当下，要做吃的也不容易。但是我们会好好的加油的。只要你东西是好吃的不怕没人来光顾。

发白日梦

 如果你身边有人很喜欢发梦你会怎么做？

是跟他讲实话还是不闻不问呢？

跟他讲实话他会觉得你在泼他冷水。

不和他讲又不想他陷入幻想里。

活在21世纪的我，也活在这地球🌍40有年

看过许多奇奇怪怪的人，骗子也多，多面具的人也多，但是要找一个真心朋友也难。所以我才不怎么会跟人交心。可悲可悲。

邪恶的人心

 这个世界充满了邪恶的人心。

身边的朋友被人玩了，真觉得他很可怜。

原本是讲要有个做生意的人要买下他渔场。但是他们厉害买了我朋友的心慢慢的将他公司的底摸得一清而楚。

这些奸商给你制造美丽的梦让你陷下去，带他去他美丽的洋房给你羡慕他拥有所用。跟你讲了长远大计说什么他要把公司搞上市。 慢慢的得到你的信任之后将你公司的底摸得一清二楚把你的供应商和顾客群僚如执掌之后就篇了一场舞台剧和外人串通好说有一群人要买下他的渔场所以他要退出让给他们。

这个故事要告诉你，不要被所看的和听给诱惑跟蒙蔽你的心。

人的面具🎭

 每一个人都是带着个几副面具🎭来待人。

有几个人包括你身边人是真心待你的。

全部都在看你演出的一台戏而已。

你呢？ 你有几副面具。但你的面具一层一层的给人掀开时会不会觉得很无助和恐惧。

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19/07/2021

 Monday morning.

Still cant get over, still feel devastated  but i tell myself to be strong.

I just have to keep everything to myself cause i know if my husband know i still cant get over it may also sad.

Today is his birthday and i thought if really i am pregnant this time this shall be the best birthday gift for him. But i know i had disappointed him already.

Really don't know what if the 2nd IVF try outcome will be the same as first time. :(

  

01st Time of IVF Failed

 Today went to KK for blood test to test for pregnancy early morning 7.30am

After my blood test done nurse had told me to go back home to wait for their call in the afternoon.

Actually I had a bad feeling these few days as my period actually start coming after embryo transfer on the 7th days.

And indeed the nurse call me this afternoon and told me that the blood test result is out and i am not pregnant. When i heard about this news, my brain actually stop running for a while. What the nurse told me after i didnt even listening. 

Nurse then told me to come for another consultation review by the doctor on the next month which is about one month later from today.

I felt sad about it this whole afternoon and didnt know what to do after that. But lucky my husband told me it is ok we can try again another round. But to me i really cannot stand the disappointment again if another round of IVF fail again.

Cross my hand and wish me good luck for the next round.   

My IVF journey 2021

 To all IVF warriors. I really salute you all women who undergo this journey 

It is really a very tedious and tiring journey. Countless of needle shot and ultrasound scanning really drain me out. . It seem like hospital is my 2nd home. Almost everyday need to report there and spends almost half days waiting time for scanning, reviewing of doctor and collection of medicine. 

But tomorrow is the day for the retrieval of egg and i am so excited for the day to come. Which mean I closer to the day to transfer the embryos to my body. 

Usher - I Don't Mind (Lyrics) ft. Juicy J

Rico Rico

 

A lazy Sunday

 

Just a another lazy Sunday 

TikTok Video

 My only hobbie when I am at home doing nothing

Swollen eye

 Wake up late night yesterday and discover having swollen eye. “It really very swollen on my right eye, till I can’t really open up my eye” 

Went to wash it with running tap water and hope it get better.

Haa...haa..  my husband said help me go 7 eleven to buy the Eye drop for me. Actually I think there is no need to buy as I Guess the swollen will just go away itself. 

But ending up we went to the nearby shop to get one.

22 Oct 2020 Friday

 

昨天去了律师事务所一趟去帮公司签一份买卖工厂协议书了

工厂也真的卖了，也就是说我们又要搬家了了。

去年底才刚搬来，今年年底又要搬家了。

一意味我们又要忙到要死搬东西了。还要在两个月以内搬家。想到这些我就觉得很烦。😔