21st June 2008
Feeling low today, satruday took nicholas to KK hopsital because of his fever, cough and also we saw some swelling on near his pelvic bone ter. We we so terrify donoe what going on...
But by the time we reach there the swelling gone. After the doctor had examine him he suspcect of hernia. Hernia is a something due to poor closure of the abdomial muscle and the intestinal may come out through the hole. The swelling might be the intestine. The doc refer me to the surgery doctor for further investigation to reconfirm whether is that hernia. I really cant sleep well these 2 days. If confirm i hernia nicholas might need to go for surgery to repair the abdominal muscle. His appointment would be on the 4th July and i be going for holiday on 7th july. I donoe whether i still got the mood to go for that.
22nd June (Sunday)
i cant really control my temper. i already try my very own best to control it but it seem useless, i often get hot when i feed him dinner and bath him after school. Everytime i feed him i need an hour to do so, cant really understand why he eat so slow.I felt sorrie after i eat him or scold him. I know it not his wrong to eat slow but just i very impantient it maybe im rushing of time.
